This morning, the house was quiet, but Charlotte and I were up. She got dressed and we had plenty of time so I told her I would braid her hair...she LOVES having braids (two french braids). We were just talking, enjoying our 'girl time' and she told me "Mommy, someone told me that Moms don't have much time to live.".....my heart BROKE, thinking that my little girl was aware of my mortality, that someday she would have to live without her Mommy. I reassured her that I am here for her while she is in kindergarten, and that I will be there for her when she is in first grade, eighth grade, and when she goes to college. I'll be there when she gets married and when she has a baby of her own (she's promised me I can be her doula). I realize I will but blink my eyes and the time will fly to these momentous events....as I was pondering these things over as I braided her beautiful hair I realized she was wiping tears from her eyes, so I quickly changed the subject.
Starting school has been rough for Mason, FULL days are long for him. He's tired when he gets home and he misses his siblings and being home. Truth be told...I miss him during the day! This morning I still teared up as I watched my two little hearts walk away from me and hop on the school bus. I wonder if it will get easier? It reminds me of the tug on my heart when I put Mason in daycare when I went back to work. It never got easier for me...someone else has my kids all day long, and I MISS THEM!
Here's a pic of my biggest and littlest taken this morning...blurry, yes...but still cute :)
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Aw, poor Charlotte. That's such a hard conversation to have. Ever since Indy died, Carter's been very aware of mortality and talks very candidly about it, although not always without sadness. He thinks you go to heaven when you are 88. I have to reassure him that mommy won't be 88 for a LONG time....
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