Day 10

Matt,
Today is the last day I had to put the kids to bed without you. Your flight from NY - MSP should be landing within the hour, and then you will be on your drive home to us.

I, unfortunately, had to share some bad news with you today as you set foot on U.S. soil for the first time in many days. Today, your Grandpa Cushing passed away. So sad. I'm thankful that Grandpa is in a better place and is no longer suffering. He was ready. It's odd though, as much as we *think* we are ready too, it's never easy to lose the ones we love. Rest in peace, Grandpa.

Today we readied the house for your homecoming...laundry is done, sheets are changed on all the beds, groceries got delivered and put away, and all the bags from our trip are unpacked. While the house is not perfect, it's in better shape than we left it a week and a half ago :)

Oh, and of course your favorite cinnamon rolls got made today for tomorrow morning's breakfast....the first breakfast we've all had at home together in 13 days. There's steak in the fridge and a good bottle of wine on the shelf too...I figured you could use a good meal.

People assume that I need you here because I need help with the kids. Truth be told, the 4 rugrats aren't all that bad...yes, we've had our moments, but it's been good. I need you here because my glass is only half full without you. I'm not at my best when you are away....simply because you build me up...your presence makes me a better person. Our kids need you...they need their father, and despite the fact that they haven't shed a tear over your absence, I can see they have missed you oh.so.much...more than they even realize.

The saying goes "absence makes the heart grow fonder." ... that's a load of crap. My 'fondness' of you has never faltered...it's more like 'absence makes the heart go crazy.' I am so very thankful I don't have to wake up another morning without you. Hurry home, my love...