Day 8

Matt,
Today is Day 8 without you. I am done. I am done trying to be happy and busy without you. I am done trying to pretend I can do this on my own...I can't. I need you. Our kids need you. I pray you don't have to leave us again like this for a VERY long time, if ever.

Today I told Isaac we were going to go home tomorrow. He said excitedly: "and see Daddy!!" I had to tell him no, that you wouldn't be home for a few more days.

The kids have been having a lot of fun...today we went to the library while Sarah had to work for an hour at Nicki's, then we went to McDonalds and let them play at the playplace for a very long time. We stayed until Maggie couldn't take it anymore and needed to get down for her nap (you know how she hates to sleep in public!).

Then we came back, the kids played play-doh, and then were off to play hide-and-seek, legos, etc.

The boys gave me a TON of trouble going to bed tonight...it was awful for all of us. Tomorrow night they will sleep in their own beds and that will hopefully be better for us all. I have a feeling the next couple of days will be the hardest on all of us though.

Words fail to express what my heart is feeling tonight...I.miss.you.