Ready?

People will ask us "Are you ready for the baby?" Well, the answer is both 'yes' and 'no'.

If you mean physically, yes...the nursery is painted, the crib is up, the diapers are stacked. We have a list of names and are just waiting to meet her before deciding, her quilt is made, the van is organized for seating for 4 carseats. So yes, logistically speaking, we are ready.

Are you ever ready for the craziness that will come with a house full of four kids? The sleepless nights, the midnight feedings, the crying baby, the spit up, the pooptastrophes, etc? I am prepared for all of it...but we know it will be a great transition. All of this is minor though, and very non-concerning to me.

What I am really not ready for is the amount of love that my heart will be able to hold, the joy of seeing the children with their new little sister, how my heart will melt when I see my husband hold our little girl for the first time...these things for me I can think about and imagine, but I am not fully prepared for the JOY that this little life will bring. To me, these things are unimaginable until you are in the moment. Sort of like becoming a parent for the first time...your are prepared, yet fully incapable of comprehending how your life will change. Yes, we've done this three times before, but it is always new and different.

So are we ready? The answer is - we are as ready as we can be :)